Give me your strength

Tonight my mind refused to move forward. My thoughts stuck, stare glued, voice not present, sense of smell dead. The image was you. I went through old stuff I've gone through so many times before. Glasses, old clothes, a couple of watches, your diary which I knew was there. No shock. Put aside. Gently. Old schoolbooks, literature, papers... and a picture. It was you. Definitely. You, chair, balcony, beach, seal, waves, surfers, birds, horrizon, sunset. Couldn't tell where it had been taken, who you were with, time of year, or how old but you winded up between a magnet and my fridge. Still smiling. I took 4 and a half step back. Still smiling. Just as you are remembered, exactly as you were. I sat down and closed my eyes. I tried to get to know the feeling. Feeling of losing you, losing us. Behind closed eyes the picture was still there and three tears fell. The promise of getting you safe through life were nothing but a wish. Tears were falling still. Opened, closed, opened. 6 hours, 48 minutes, back to floor, three tears dried..you still smiling. I hear you.

What's on my mind.

Time. Comes, is, goes, goes by. Life. Is. An ultimatum, opposite until death. Dark. Absent of light. Light. A start. Alone it has no end. Eternity. Forever. You? Me. Strength to last. Stronger. Rawer. Faster to slower. Standing still. Timeless. Not existing. Barely. Evolving, develop. In time. Time